I had to write this!
…lately my life has been relaxed and stable, but this week i had a course, the instructors were a great colombian couple. Since the first time i saw him, i liked the guy (my bff took the course 2 days before me and she had told me he was cute… btw, her boyfriend is colombian!), i liked his confidence and all the great things he knew and as a latin man he was a gentleman.
As an introduction of this aspect of me, my flirt abilities are terrible and im pretty sure thats why ive been single for a while (no, not complaining). Back to my experience this last day, i felt some “signs” coming from the colombian guy, but since our backgrounds i didnt want to believe i had a chance. First mistake, everybody has a chance until the other person tells u -no thanks, not interested- but im by far the most insecure woman on earth. So i told this things to my best friend, a great doctor who has had a very active love life, he encouraged me to search for my “crush” (yes, i became a teenager even tough im 32!) and i looked for him on Facebook… he accepted the request in 1 minute, one more sign for me!. Then we started talking on the messenger of the Facebook… i had to tell u this and u have to believe me, ive never never ran out of battery in ten years of using a cell phone, never…. until this moment when im jumping in bed of happiness cause of having an interesting conversation with a nice guy… well, i was writing about the reason why i sended him my Facebook request, because the road to the airport was blocked for the teachers of my country (
the goverment reforms are bad for them!) but since i couldnt finished the sentenced it looked like i was inviting him to go out… i wanted to obviously, but where could i find the courage to do that!, anyway he told me he was going to message me so we could go for a beer or something… i was so happy, took a shower, grab a nice pair of jeans, some natural make up and started waiting… for cutting the useless description of my feelings in that moment, he never messaged… i felt rejected, useless and very stupid because for a while i did things against my ideas and usual behavior…
That happened last night, this morning i realized ive lost weight since im on regime for 2 months, and i started feeling better, went running, got 12 km!!!! and saw another guy who seems to be interesting, of course no more illusions, no more first moves on my side.
Got home after some shopping and then, i was still confused… why? when did i misunderstood the reality? why me? what did i do wrong? bla, bla, bla and then, grab my phone and messaged… yes one more hit of courage, i mean, im a woman, beautiful, interesting, funny, hard working, passed the course and he always laugh at me… my sweet claimed messaged was: youstoodmeup.com… he told me they never left the hotel room, he was bored and sorry we both didnt go out… i was like, what?!!!!! yes, i know u are thinking the same…
Anyway, bottom of the story, take chances!!!!!, do things everyday that u never thougt u could do, fight for what u want, it doesnt matter if the person who u care is from another country, age, gender or even religion, take the advantages of being alive!